Emotions.

sadness

2010-05-06T20:27:00.001-07:00

smsa strezz ass. without ps im literally keelin myself D: and my back hurtsssss @_@.

z

2010-05-06T07:30:00.001-07:00

biking is fun. why i say? guess.

gah

2010-05-05T05:56:00.001-07:00

god my neck is effin killing me =|

expectations

2010-05-04T09:18:00.000-07:00

with expectations, you have hopes, aims. and with that, disappointment and happiness comes along too. The higher the expectations, the more the disappointment if you fail. so why still try? its because of the happiness from achieving that expectation. But, is it worth it? Expectations will never decrease, even if you fail to achieve it. It will simply increase, because if you fail something, you will expect to pass it in the future, giving you another expectation, while still having the previous expectation to achieve. *shakes head* this world is weird.

:\

2010-05-04T01:38:00.000-07:00

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and
soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story...

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,
why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what
had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just
pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent
ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for
her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I
had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of
me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a
kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something
at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell
asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not
care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken
marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of
our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd
request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we
both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy
in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to
the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in
my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about
the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the
office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry
her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly;
it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held
her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I
held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked
intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have
a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each
other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on
our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my
wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and
wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I
run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the
bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot
give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a
real happy marriage!

START OF MAY

2010-05-02T08:40:00.001-07:00

may. hell month? cause of exams?? nahhh. start of may wasnt half bad, in fact it was awesome. :)

xin krys ben vic chua liyana liza bazli.

wywy~ awesome. mwehehehhe.

birthday

2010-04-27T02:43:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me :)

first time having bday in smsa, it was fun. many many many many greetings from people :D. HAHAHA. some i dont even know, greet saja! hantam ajee haha.

overall, it was a fun day. :)

pressys... thank you liyana carlton peilin june sj chichi tzin krys sally xin bry for my bday pressies.

they all mean alot to me. pics of my pressys? will post soon i hope. hehe.

special thanks to cynthia for singing my bday song in the ps area. hehe.

real way for emos to cut themselves

2010-04-22T21:28:00.000-07:00

remember kids, its along the road, not across the street. :)

2010-04-22T00:54:00.000-07:00

opinions. people have different opinions. so, please do present your opinion in a kind and respectable way so that you wont piss others off.

do you do this? i know im trying to.

2010-04-19T04:00:00.000-07:00

i *blank* you, but im still your friend and i will be there when you need a helping hand?

this doesnt exist does it.

Friends are forever, no matter how mean/nice they are. (A)

2010-04-19T00:56:00.000-07:00

The game board is finally set, with all the pieces in place! let the games begin!

2010-04-13T01:50:00.001-07:00

Beatrice’s Epitaph

my beloved hometown, the sweetfish river running through it.
You who seek the Golden Land, follow its path downstream and seek the key.

if you follow the river downstream, you will find a village.
in the village, look for the shore the two will tell you of.
there sleeps the key to the Golden Land.

he who lays hand upon the key shall travel under the rules below.

At the first twilight, you shall lift up as sacrifice the six chosen by the key.
At the second twilight, the surviving shall tear apart the two who are close.
At the third twilight, the surviving shall praise my honorable name on high.
At the fourth twilight, gouge the head and kill.
At the fifth twilight, gouge the chest and kill.
At the sixth twilight, gouge the stomach and kill.
At the seventh twilight, gouge the knee and kill.
At the eighth twilight, gouge the leg and kill.
At the ninth twilight, the Witch shall be revived and none shall be left alive.
At the tenth twilight, the journey shall end and you should reach the village of gold.

the Witch will praise the wise, and should bestow four treasures.
One shall be, all the gold from the Golden Land.
One shall be, the resurrection of the souls of all the dead.
One shall be, even the resurrection of the lost love.
One shall be, to put the Witch to sleep for all time.

sleep peacefully, my most beloved witch, Beatrice.

2010-04-12T21:24:00.000-07:00

Sigh. Probably too dumb or have a fucked up attitude to be a prefect.

Or maybe,

The teacher just didnt want to nominate anyone as a prefect. sigh. why cant he just run the class like other teachers, letting students vote?=\ why must he make the decisions based on his own opinion only. Why. Why. Why. WHY.

Is it because his decisions are perfect, with no flaws? And the opinions of students are rubbish? Complete and utter rubbish? Sigh. Welcome back, dissapointment.

(C)

2010-04-12T00:50:00.001-07:00

puppies

2010-04-12T00:47:00.001-07:00

got 5 new puppies this morning O_O. hellew puppies~.

2010-03-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

It's no secret that, for years, the pressures in a young person's life — academic responsibility, parental stress, social anxieties — have led many to injure themselves. What's disconcerting is that self-abuse is on the rise.

For many kids who cut themselves, the act serves as a form of control. In the midst of what feels like chaos, cutting allows some people to exercise power over one aspect of their lives, according to Luanne Southern, NMHA senior director of prevention and children's mental health services.

"I think that more kids are doing it, and we're recognizing it more than perhaps we did in the past," Southern said. "But I also think that there are some exacerbating factors. We all lead very busy lives. Parents are working; we have a lot on our plates. I think that we put a lot of stress and undue pressure on our young people."

This sentiment is echoed in the countless message boards dedicated to self-abuse. "I usually find myself doing it because I want all the thoughts in my head to stop," posted one member of a MySpace group for cutters. "They always put me down and made me upset, but during and after I cut, they all stop and go away and I can just relax for a bit."

Increased awareness is key. But finding a community that can comfort, inform and transform abusers is another matter. Many young people report feeling like they are burdening parents by talking about their problems when their folks are constantly busy with work and other stresses. Southern suggests that the perception that some teens have no support system may even contribute to the self-abuse cycle.

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2010-03-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

When a person suffers from these negative inner voices, they may eventually act out as a way to stop them. Sometimes, inflicting pain is a way for a person to counteract their negative feelings. Physical pain can serve as a substitute for emotional pain.

In this case, the person who self-harms may be a teen who has been told over and over that he is an awful person. Perhaps this person feels he deserves self-injury. As twisted as that thinking is, it is not uncommon for those who are abused to inflict abuse, even on themselves.

There are still other situations in which people who inflict injury on themselves are crying out for attention. Perhaps they suffer from depression or other grave emotional problems, but they do not know how to express themselves.

In conclusion, it may be difficult to imagine causing physical harm to yourself by inflicting injuries. If, however, you know someone who chooses to injure himself, try to understand that this behavior reflects some
serious problems.

You will probably want encourage this person to get professional help. Keep in mind, too, that those who cut themselves often do so in secret. If you suspect your child or another loved one is engaging in this behavior, try to get them to talk about it at all possible. As previously stated, it is likely a cry for help, and one that should not be ignored.

Hmm

2010-03-30T04:56:00.000-07:00

Some consider it to be relieving or calming, especially with stress release or anxiety, since after experiencing pain, the body releases pain-killing chemicals (endorphins?) In my humble opinion, this is a much better alternative to taking drugs, even OTC drugs since it's all natural, or abusing alcohol or getting an eating disorder etc. etc. I would recommend excercise first, since it does basically the same thing w/o the risk of infection and leaving scars, but if you are going to cut, make sure you sterilize the blade first and clean the wound with antiseptic and all that. Try to cut in inconspicuous places since those scars will be there pretty much forever. At any rate, I think cutters aren't so much people who are depressed as those who tend to be affected by their environment and have high levels of anxiety or nervousness.

Stress release... that explains it all.

HAHAHA

2010-03-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

man, nomatter how you act, nomatter how much you hate me, i will blablabla. ngaww less than three haha. sorry for pissing you off, bu shi gu yi de. @_@ cya~

happy birthday

2010-03-26T10:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUL AND ERA! WOOTS DOUBLE BDAY HELL YEAH@ HAHAH.

hmm

2010-03-13T03:09:00.001-08:00

happy 17th bday vance tan. may you have an enjoyable day mate. =D

ntoe to self

2010-03-10T03:46:00.000-08:00

note to self:
mid-term 3 blacks, i win drink
no 3 black, i lose drink D:

bleh

2010-02-16T09:01:00.000-08:00

bleh, i guess my mesages arent really worth being replied by most people.

anyways, happy third day of chinese new year all ~.

14/2/10

2010-02-13T08:37:00.001-08:00

happy cny and vals day all =).

2010-02-06T12:48:00.001-08:00

bleh. i am having a srs case of insomnia. :\ everything seems to be coming back to me, the events from before o levels till the day the results came out. god, happy and sad memories. it hurts. damn, i hate to say this, but i just cant let go. =\ i really cant. meh, if you still browse through my blog:
i still cant let go, i still miss you =X, ive been having dreams, and no, its not my fault, seriously =\.

~

2010-01-18T10:50:00.001-08:00

happy birthday silvian~.

yawn

2010-01-17T04:31:00.001-08:00

i r bored

:S

2010-01-12T16:42:00.000-08:00

why do we care for people who hurt us =\
why
why
why
why
why

:\

2010-01-11T10:55:00.001-08:00

i still care. nomatter what i do. i still freakin care. god is so nuisance. :\

=\

2010-01-09T10:53:00.000-08:00

whats so wrong about the word chillax =\

rawr

2010-01-08T09:36:00.001-08:00

happy new year~ epic belated lol, 8 days late.

bored :D

rawr

2009-12-30T10:05:00.001-08:00

rawr happy new years eve to everyone =)

after-christmas side effects :O

2009-12-26T16:05:00.000-08:00

after christmas, you tend to realise one thing. most of our friends are currently scattered around asia~. theyre celebrating christmas outside haha. but thats not the only thing i realised. i also realised, they are either missing someone, or feeling lonely. ahahaha.

Man that is so m1ndfukk3d XD.

Lonely people.. If two or more lonely people meet and chat.. they wont be lonely anymore.. or will they? who knows.

byee :D

taylor swift - christmas when you were mine

2009-12-25T03:48:00.001-08:00

Please take down the misletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alright
If you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine

Singapore

2009-12-25T03:38:00.000-08:00

singapore is really fun so far, except for the fact that there are so many couples everywhere, even those different races are couples with each other. O_O its so *facepalm* haha. Here's something you dont see everyday. :) different races dating.. without anyone caring. ahaha. EXTACY =D. haha.

rawr

2009-12-25T03:27:00.000-08:00

last christmas i gave her my heart
but the very next year she threw it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll keep it to myself<3

25/12/09

2009-12-24T08:42:00.000-08:00

merry christmas everyone :) happy happy day~ merry christmas dear dear friends victor, benny, vivian, yekjun <3
merry christmas peilin krystalina chinghow (oo)
merry christmas other friends <3
merry christmas my dearest sister silvian <3
merry christmas nuraini <3
merry christmas my dearest family :3
merry christmas my other friends :)
last but not least..
merry christmas people of singapore and brunei <3 and all those reading this blog.
this year, my christmas is gona be in singapore :D haha thats so awesome. im in spore now. :)

(EDITED)

bummer

2009-12-22T19:54:00.000-08:00

one person's trash is another person's treasure. This applies to everything, especially memories. :\

taken from some site

2009-12-20T10:49:00.000-08:00

Are Your Friends Here for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?

Many of us are fortunate enough to have friends who are a consistent part of our lives throughout all our ups and downs. However, sometimes others we consider friends appear to enter, then depart from our lives for reasons we try to, but don't always, understand. This piece nicely explains the flow of people in and out of our lives.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

Then people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

which one do YOU think you are to that person?:\

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2009-12-20T10:14:00.000-08:00

Quote from J.
*quotes*“I love you” doesn’t really mean that I want you to be mine. In fact, it’s another way of saying, “I’m happy to see you happy with someone new even if it’s killing me.” So I guess I love you. *endquote*

I guess its true, for most cases. Right?

haiz

2009-12-15T11:09:00.001-08:00

i miss my nocturnal buddies >:

haiz

2009-12-15T11:06:00.001-08:00

haiz =\ dieblog. :(

finally

2009-12-06T10:04:00.000-08:00

Finally, I have been left all alone, waiting. waiting.. waiting... waiting... and still waiting...

memories #1

2009-11-22T04:52:00.000-08:00

i just remembered, an old friend of mine told me he/she never had best friends... cause he/she said that not everyone can be trusted... shouldeve just listened to him.

roar.

2009-11-15T08:01:00.000-08:00

where did that happy boy go? :\

byebye

2009-10-14T07:38:00.001-07:00

so long bloggie till 14/11/09~! :D

:).

2009-10-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

想起我们在一起的那段期间，使我感到最快乐的, 我希望你们也一样.
可是会考就快来临了，我真的希望大家能用功读书，考取优异的成绩.
Lets do this, 我们可以的!

:D. *hugs all form 5 science* King of school!:).

过去有什么得罪之处，请多多包涵. 那是因为我承受着很大的压力.
请不要见怪。谢谢:)

Sigh.

2009-10-06T08:58:00.000-07:00

Stupid. Sigh. Why must it be always like this?=\.

Anyways, two weeks till o levels. yes ive started studying. @_@ is so strezzz lol.

bleh.

2009-09-03T01:21:00.000-07:00

man. im still waiting. life is weird~ haha. *stabs myself* t(-.-t)

//anyways//
oral is over~ both malay oral and english oral :D so happy haha. english oral seemed easy, malay seemed hard. im in the middle of year end exams now, and so far so good i guess. :D goodluck to everyone that are sitting for the year end exams now. =]

zzzz

2009-08-03T22:07:00.001-07:00

I cant believe what i did just now. -__- 3 days spent at school to do that math past year paper, and within afew mins, *FRAWK* i crumpled the paper and tossed it into the bin. am i so stressed?:S

I don't know myself anymore. :(

.

2009-08-03T03:13:00.000-07:00

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Thank you.

Wo Zhi Dao 我知道 (I Know)

2009-07-21T08:50:00.000-07:00

从来没想过
(cóngláiméixiǎngguò)
不能再和你牵手
(bùnéngzàihénǐqiānshǒu)
委屈时候
(wěiqushíhòu)
没有你
(méiyǒunǐ)
陪着我心痛
(péizhewǒxīntòng)

一切都是我
(yíqièdōushìwǒ)
太过骄纵
(tàiguòjiāozòng)
以为你会懂
(yǐwéinǐhuìdǒng)
一直忘了说
(yìzhíwàngleshuō)
我有多感动
(wǒyǒuduōgǎndòng)

我知道你还是爱着我
(wǒzhīdàonǐháishìàizhewǒ)
虽然
(suīrán)
分开的理由
(fēnkāidelǐyóu)
我们都已接受
(wǒmendōuyǐjiēshòu)

你知道我会有多难过
(nǐzhīdàowǒhuìyǒuduōnánguò)
所以
(suǒyǐ)
即使到最后
(jíshǐdàozuìhòu)
还微笑着
(háiwēixiàozhe)
要我加油
(yàowǒjiāyóu)

我知道你还放不下我
(wǒzhīdàonǐháifàngbùxiàwǒ)
才会
(cáihuì)
在离开时
(zàilíkāishí)
闭着眼没有回头
(bìzhuóyǎnméiyǒuhuítóu)

我们都知道彼此心中
(wǒmendōuzhīdàobǐcǐxīnzhōng)
其实
(qíshí)
这份爱没停过
(zhèfènàiméitíngguò)

曾经完整幸福的梦
(céngjīngwánzhěngxìngfúdemèng)
在脑海里头
(zàinǎohǎilǐtóu)
我多希望你
(wǒduōxīwàngnǐ)
还在我左右
(háizàiwǒzuǒyòu)

答应你
(dāyingnǐ)
我会好好过
(wǒhuìhǎohǎoguò)
不让
(búràng)
这些眼泪白流
(zhèxiēyǎnlèibáiliú)

sigh

2009-07-18T07:55:00.001-07:00

Dear god, why do you love to prove me wrong? =\

random

2009-07-15T09:31:00.000-07:00

Goodnight.

Happy birthday Your Majesty~

2009-07-14T09:04:00.000-07:00

1967~2006 PICTURES OF HIS MAJESTY.

hahaha. happy 63rd bday your majesty.

o_o

2009-07-03T19:18:00.000-07:00

bored.hols movie, school, fishing, movie, tution, movie again, and again, and again. >.,not bad actually, other than the stupid h1n1 which caused school hols to extend 1 week, 1 freakin week. >.< >

cases:101 now. lol, weird number. o_O should give hamper pack for the 100th patient. =P lol.

boredom~XD

2-0

2009-06-07T22:25:00.000-07:00

congrats lakers. :)

Team	1	2	3	4	OT				T
Magic	15	20	30	23	8				96
Lakers	15	25	23	25	13				101

victory 1-0

2009-06-04T20:42:00.000-07:00

Team	1	2	3	4	T
Magic	24	19	15	17	75
Lakers	22	31	29	18	100

number 1.

2009-06-04T10:32:00.000-07:00

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number 1
number 1, number 1

The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number 1
number 1, number 1

Can i possibly get top 10?:(

5/6/09

2009-06-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

9.00am, Orlando Magic vs. Los Angeles Lakers.

Lakers, please win. We know you can do it. Avenge cleveland cavaliers.

haiz

2009-06-04T10:11:00.000-07:00

haiz. nothing will ever be the same anymore. everything changed. hopefully everything will be over and back to normal after o levels. please, god? :( thank you.

hmm

2009-06-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

wouldnt it be good if we could forget about everything expcept studies and afew friends for now? then we could actually achieve way more than what we can achieve now.

2009-05-30T20:07:00.000-07:00

Who are capable of making us feel sad?
The exact ones who make us feel happy.
Why do they make us feel happy?
Because we love them. It's always the ones we love most who make us feel saddest.
[credits to sil?]

Meaningful, and i agree. They make us feel happy and sad at the same time. :\

cavs vs magics

2009-05-30T20:02:00.000-07:00

Sad. :(

Team	1	2	3	4					T
Cavaliers	25	15	30	16					86
Magic	30	28	28	15					101

4-2. D:

lmao

2009-05-29T01:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes life is like this dark tunnel, you cant always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving, you will come to a better place.

gotten from what show :D

happy day.

2009-05-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

:D went to the beach with sil nuraini siaw wee yekjun michelle and peilin today. we played like hell while yekjun was walking. then, mou ding ding, yekjun and yeehong and kaijad came together. then we all play really fun at the deep water. siewjuan and nuraini tried to swim lol. XD :P

Uh huh.. then play like hell till sunset, then siaw wee and michelle suddenly gone lol. they went home >.> then we threw mud at each other lol. then gohome. :D walk to sil's house then car came. the end. :) overall happy. ^_^

random

2009-05-28T01:17:00.000-07:00

x says (4:15 rachel):
*its
*pedophile
*lol
- says (4:15 rachel):
*no
*u r wrong
*its
*kuanjong
*f3
x says (4:15 rachel):
*HHSHSHS

FUCK

2009-05-25T22:23:00.001-07:00

FUCK EVERYTHING. t(-.-t) =.=

HAHAHAHAHA

2009-05-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

CRAZY WHACK. SIAO ALREADY~

PHYSICS AND ADD MATH TMRO. HAHAHAHA. SIAO FINALLY BREAK DOWN =D

FHUNKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

WOOOOOOOOOOOO
@P

GILAGILAA.HAHHAAHAHAHHA

fuck.

2009-05-23T07:59:00.001-07:00

say hello to the idiot that "tripped" my friend, making her fall down and laying flat on the floor for now. :(

exams

2009-05-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

exams.
study.
ace.
own or be owned.
study.
exams.

we gotta love exams. :) gets us prepared for o levels <3 sometimes demoralises us, but its a good thing sometimes, teaches us not to underestimate something, and think its easy. :)

So, good luck to everyone having exams. Hope you all ace them with flying colours, and to those that didnt really ace their exams, try harder, and learn from your mistakes, literally. Revise your exam papers and learn from mistakes, haha. :)

good luck alls~ XD

[ btw, i heard chms exam really fast this time. why?:\]

jonkeat's gf

2009-05-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

really "hot" right? We're all so jealous of you, jonkeat. you have a gf and we dont :( a freakin actcute gf. haiz, keat keat. :\

nice

2009-05-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

today had chem practical. aced it XD i hope... :\

well, been busy. :D exams are coming~ hooray. then holidays, then school, then exam, then holidays, then school, then exams, then o levels, then free~!:D

happy birthday bro

2009-05-02T10:23:00.000-07:00

happy birthday carlton :D

happy birthday sis

2009-04-29T03:29:00.001-07:00

happy bday jiejie:D

Btw,

2009-04-27T02:00:00.001-07:00

i deleted a post that i posted last night. :) (just for your info xP)

yay

2009-04-27T01:44:00.001-07:00

thanks everyone for the wishes, thanks wayne for the unique present, really appreciate it :D

Thanks siaw wee for the song sung in class :)

26/04/93

2009-04-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

yeah~ had bbq:D

had lots of fun hahahahaaXD

von+sau herng brought the spirit of the party~:D

sau herng made a cake for meh :3 is so nice X3 she rox~<3

nuraini got me... stuff <3

sil got me... something :3, and she rox, but all sis rocks no?:3

ben got me something :D, and he rox

carlton got me... nothing, for now =P but he still rox

we bbqed haha. we bbqed ourselves, it was quite fun X3

YAY

2009-04-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 TO MYSELF?=D

What ive been up to?

2009-04-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

long time no blog. ive been up to:
1) ball with friends first time
2) trip
3) inforama zz
4) chat
5) online
6)hw
7) slp
8) being bored
9) not blogging
10) blogging now.

sigh

2009-04-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

sigh. bio file oh bio file, where are you my dear file :(

EDIT: found it, thank you jonkeat.

:\.

2009-04-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken, im not the type to get upset and cry
cause i'll never leave my heart open never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships dont get deep to me never got that whole enough thing
and someone can say they love me truly but at the time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone im spinning round and deep inside my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip what's happening i stray from love this is how i feel

this time was different felt like I was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but no matter
what you'll never see me cry

did it happen when we first kissed cause it's hurting me to let it go
maybe cause we spend so much time and I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby maybe why im sad to see us apart
I didnt give it to you on purpose gotta figure out how you stole my heart

my mind is gone i'm spinning round and deep inside my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip what's happening I stray from love this is how I feel

this time was different felt like I was just a victim

and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but no matter
what you'll never see me cry

how did I get here with you i'll never know
and never meant to let it get so personal
and after all I tried to do to stay away from loving you
i'm broken hearted i can let you know
and i wont let it show, you wont see me cry

this time was different felt like I was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but no matter
what you'll never see me cry

this time was different felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and i've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but no matter
what you'll never see me cry, all my life

100th post

2009-04-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

i wub you~<3 hahahaha. :D 100th post, what to do?

lets hold a blog party~weeeeeeeeeeeeeX3

o_o.

2009-04-10T00:54:00.000-07:00

As I stare at the sky,
I see a shooting star.
I think of you
And all that we could be.

I made a wish
Upon that shooting star,
Hoping you would love me
The way that I love you.

When I looked into your eyes
I knew it was true;
I loved you,
And I thought you loved me too.

Since then you found a guy;
I wish that I was him,
But I am not,
And I won't stop wishing for you.

Day after day,
I wish you would hold me tight.
Kiss me with your soft gentle lips,
And say that you love me.

I love you more than words could say;
I wish I could hold you night and day.
I'll love you always and forever,
Even if you don't love me.

hmmm

2009-04-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

hmm blog's dead. 3 hours ago, just got back from open house. zzzz i ate..stuff. then talk awhile then gohome lol. XD tmro no school, cause all the teachers busy~ XD hooray

FUCK

2009-04-08T01:30:00.000-07:00

FUCKING HELL WHY CANT I SLEEP ITS ALREADY ABOUT 1.30 AM AND IM STILL FUCKING AWAKE... USUALLY ALREADY ASLEEP t(-.-t)

2009-04-04T22:48:00.001-07:00

zz.

maths activity+remedial class =_=

2009-04-03T05:05:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeee~ maths activity today. i has pix but im lazy to post. maybe later. well, it was quite fun XD watching those kids panic and all. After maths activity which ended at 8.30 or 9.00 for afew groups, we had english and chem class. add math class was free period, cause we were all tired from the math activity =_=

eww

2009-03-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

oosince when did chms have two days spotchecks in a row? and even worse, the next one is in afternoon =_=

when youre down and bored,

2009-03-26T21:25:00.001-07:00

what should you do? play flash X3

thanks

2009-03-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

thanks to *insert name here(you know who you are) for taking my bottle. :)

three

2009-03-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

three days :O

lonely~

2009-03-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

bored. hello all XD

sigh.

2009-03-19T21:04:00.000-07:00

sigh. (one word post tells all)

sigh

2009-03-16T05:40:00.000-07:00

sorry for the swears. my results suck this term, cant believe it -.- physics chem bio suck, but the rest are...improved?O_O! by a lil only la, physics drop the most. sad...

FUCK

2009-03-16T04:44:00.000-07:00

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FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

WTF

2009-03-12T01:29:00.000-07:00

I JUST DID CHINESE 1 PAPER...AND FINISHED NO WAII =O

FVCK.

2009-03-11T05:25:00.000-07:00

DID I JUST UNDERESTIMATE ANOTHER PERSON!?==

Sorry.

2009-03-11T04:12:00.001-07:00

Sorry.

... sorta true.

2009-03-10T04:17:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

from curiosity. i was and is still kinda bored. maybe till 7.30 =]