Beatrice’s Epitaph

my beloved hometown, the sweetfish river running through it.
You who seek the Golden Land, follow its path downstream and seek the key.

if you follow the river downstream, you will find a village.
in the village, look for the shore the two will tell you of.
there sleeps the key to the Golden Land.

he who lays hand upon the key shall travel under the rules below.

At the first twilight, you shall lift up as sacrifice the six chosen by the key.
At the second twilight, the surviving shall tear apart the two who are close.
At the third twilight, the surviving shall praise my honorable name on high.
At the fourth twilight, gouge the head and kill.
At the fifth twilight, gouge the chest and kill.
At the sixth twilight, gouge the stomach and kill.
At the seventh twilight, gouge the knee and kill.
At the eighth twilight, gouge the leg and kill.
At the ninth twilight, the Witch shall be revived and none shall be left alive.
At the tenth twilight, the journey shall end and you should reach the village of gold.

the Witch will praise the wise, and should bestow four treasures.
One shall be, all the gold from the Golden Land.
One shall be, the resurrection of the souls of all the dead.
One shall be, even the resurrection of the lost love.
One shall be, to put the Witch to sleep for all time.

sleep peacefully, my most beloved witch, Beatrice.

Sigh. Probably too dumb or have a fucked up attitude to be a prefect.

Or maybe,

The teacher just didnt want to nominate anyone as a prefect. sigh. why cant he just run the class like other teachers, letting students vote?=\ why must he make the decisions based on his own opinion only. Why. Why. Why. WHY.

Is it because his decisions are perfect, with no flaws? And the opinions of students are rubbish? Complete and utter rubbish? Sigh. Welcome back, dissapointment.

(C)

(C) for what? CHAMPION! COPY! CHAMPION OF COPY! :).

puppies

got 5 new puppies this morning O_O. hellew puppies~.

It's no secret that, for years, the pressures in a young person's life — academic responsibility, parental stress, social anxieties — have led many to injure themselves. What's disconcerting is that self-abuse is on the rise.

For many kids who cut themselves, the act serves as a form of control. In the midst of what feels like chaos, cutting allows some people to exercise power over one aspect of their lives, according to Luanne Southern, NMHA senior director of prevention and children's mental health services.

"I think that more kids are doing it, and we're recognizing it more than perhaps we did in the past," Southern said. "But I also think that there are some exacerbating factors. We all lead very busy lives. Parents are working; we have a lot on our plates. I think that we put a lot of stress and undue pressure on our young people."

This sentiment is echoed in the countless message boards dedicated to self-abuse. "I usually find myself doing it because I want all the thoughts in my head to stop," posted one member of a MySpace group for cutters. "They always put me down and made me upset, but during and after I cut, they all stop and go away and I can just relax for a bit."

Increased awareness is key. But finding a community that can comfort, inform and transform abusers is another matter. Many young people report feeling like they are burdening parents by talking about their problems when their folks are constantly busy with work and other stresses. Southern suggests that the perception that some teens have no support system may even contribute to the self-abuse cycle.

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When a person suffers from these negative inner voices, they may eventually act out as a way to stop them. Sometimes, inflicting pain is a way for a person to counteract their negative feelings. Physical pain can serve as a substitute for emotional pain.

In this case, the person who self-harms may be a teen who has been told over and over that he is an awful person. Perhaps this person feels he deserves self-injury. As twisted as that thinking is, it is not uncommon for those who are abused to inflict abuse, even on themselves.

There are still other situations in which people who inflict injury on themselves are crying out for attention. Perhaps they suffer from depression or other grave emotional problems, but they do not know how to express themselves.

In conclusion, it may be difficult to imagine causing physical harm to yourself by inflicting injuries. If, however, you know someone who chooses to injure himself, try to understand that this behavior reflects some
serious problems.

You will probably want encourage this person to get professional help. Keep in mind, too, that those who cut themselves often do so in secret. If you suspect your child or another loved one is engaging in this behavior, try to get them to talk about it at all possible. As previously stated, it is likely a cry for help, and one that should not be ignored.

Hmm

Some consider it to be relieving or calming, especially with stress release or anxiety, since after experiencing pain, the body releases pain-killing chemicals (endorphins?) In my humble opinion, this is a much better alternative to taking drugs, even OTC drugs since it's all natural, or abusing alcohol or getting an eating disorder etc. etc. I would recommend excercise first, since it does basically the same thing w/o the risk of infection and leaving scars, but if you are going to cut, make sure you sterilize the blade first and clean the wound with antiseptic and all that. Try to cut in inconspicuous places since those scars will be there pretty much forever. At any rate, I think cutters aren't so much people who are depressed as those who tend to be affected by their environment and have high levels of anxiety or nervousness.

Stress release... that explains it all.